tabbycat13

05:58 pm: here we go!!!
ok i haven't posted in a long ass time but this is what's going on...

i found out on thursday the 7th that my dad passed away on sunday the 3rd. i really don't know how to react to that. I ean he is my father, but we were never realy close. I'm just going to try to be there for my family right now esspecially my lil bro.

I just had my last day of 1st semester.

Finals are this week and next. i have a 4 hour english final on friday, a 3 hour ILA final on saturday, and then a 4 hour chem final on sunday then monday i get to go home.

when i get home i'm going to get my new tattoo(an ankha) it's going on my back between my shoulder blades. i can't wait for that. i'm hoping to be able to see all my friends. well this is it for now. maybe i'll post again in the near future.

10:44 am: garrrrrr
ok i'm so fuckin sick and tired of everyone saying...i have no one there for me, i'm so depressed, i want to kill myself. GAHHHHHHHH!!!!! fuckin people! seriously this is life take it or leave it. you make your own life the way it is so stop bitching about all the little things.


on a lighter note...i just got a new tattoo and piercing.

04:31 pm: CBMH
The breaking of one voice that trails to my ear,
The uprising of evets that tare my heart in two,
The knowlodge of what's right and wrong that pulls me between good and evil,
The betrayl of a friend that helps me come to a realization,
Trust no one and always keep the key to your own heart.

06:31 am: YEAH!!!!!!!!
ok i'll be back in dp from the 14 till the 17 so if anyone actually misses me and wan't to hang out give me a call. (224)612-1815

<3

04:21 pm: right side of the bed....
so this is what's been going on with me since i last wrote in here.

i've met a lot of new people and i actually like it here now. i have a job too. i work at the gym. woot woot.

this past weekend was "family weekend" so my mom, sisters, brother, and my jeremy came down to come visit me. it was nice. friday, jeremy stayed in my doorm room with me. <3 then saturday, there was a lot of all the kids to do...we had a moon walk, mechanical bull, lots of food, and a bunch of other things. it was so much fun. then i spent the night at the hotel with everyone. me and jeremy sat in the hot tub most of the night. i feel very proud and special now...i got jeremy to actually go into a body of water!!!!! lol sunday, they all went home really early in the morning.

as for my classes...i think i'm doing pretty good in them. my calc class is still pretty hard and so is my chem. but i know i'll understand what's going on in them eventually. every other class s easy. which is good.

i've been trying to get rid of this nasty cold i've had for a week now. it just wont go away. i'll just have to deal with it i guess. i just hope by fall break it's gone. i don't need to get my family and everyone out there sick.

well...i don't know what else to say so i'm going to end this for now.

Peace and love!

08:57 pm: so...
i'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!! friday my mommy, my sistrs, my brother, and MY JEREMY!!!!!!!!! are coming to visit me!!!!!! it makes me so happy. i can't wait.

well, school has been going pretty good. it's school. i'm finally catching on to all my classes. i'm having a lot of fun too. no drinking, but still a lot of fun. well, off to the shower then to bed. good night all!

<3

07:19 pm: sorry so long....
well, it's been a while since i've gotten a chance to update this thing. i've been so busy with scool and homework and color guard and TRYING to make friends. but all in all things are going good.

from right now it's just 19 more days 4 hours and about 30mins until i get to see my jeremy again. Also, my mommy and the rest of my family. i'm excited!!! i got jeremy this kick ass gift he's going to love it! i think i'm more excited to give him it then he is to get it....lol but that's ok.

i went to this chinese place today it was pretty good. then me and one of my new friends walked around this old cemitary by the college it was so sad. the headstones that we could read and weren't busted into a million pieces, dated back to 1810. there was also 3 older ppl buried there (a husband and wife 45 yrs old and a woman 41 yrs old). the rest of the ppl there were all under 21. most of them 15 yrs old or just little babies ( 3 and under). but it was pretty cool. we're supposed to go check out another one later on.

but for now i'll be off...

<3

01:33 am: what has been going on....
well i moved into monmouth. it's pretty cool. band camp is finally over, i'm happy about that. it's so warm out and we have no a/c in ne of the dorms. i've made a few pretty good friends and they're chicks!!!! yeah i know amazing. wehad a girls night tonight. it was nice. i miss my jeremy so much!!!!!!! it's driving me cray not to be able to see him every day and when i get a chance to talk to him it's usually only for ten mins b/c then i have to go right back to color guard. i wish i could be with him now. but it'sa only 34 more days till i get to see him again. and my mommy's going to come visit me too. it'll be nice. i miss everyone. well, here's looking at you!

02:39 pm: good bye all...
tomorrow i move into monmouth. I'm so nervous about that. I'm ready materially but i don't know if i'm ready mentally or emotionally. But oh well, i just gotta do what i gotta do.

tomorrow is also mine and my jeremy's 3 month anniversary!!! he bought me this beautiful ring. it looks so expensive!!!!! my mom thought it was an engagement ring.

well for now i will say good bye! You all better keep in touch!

01:26 am: whoo hoo!!!! & count down part4
WHHOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! It's my birthday!!!!!!!!!!! i'm 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay yay yay!!!!!!!

now it's only

8 days till i move to monmouth

8 days till mine and jeremy's anniversary!!!!

I love hom sooo much. <3<3<3<3<3

11:19 pm: count down #3
2 days till my b-day. YAY 19!!!!!!

10 days till i move to monmouth

10 days till mne and jeremy's 3 month anniversary!!!!!!

i'm so...excited, scared, nervious, happy, amazed, loved....u name it and i probably feel it...lol

peace bitches!

11:57 pm: count down part 2!!!!
YEAH!!!!! COUNT WITH ME!!!!!!!!

3 days till my sisters b-day (still need to get a gift)

6 days till my b-day!!!!!!!!! YEAH 19 BABY!!!

14 days till i move in at monmouth! :'(

14 days till mine and jeremy's 3 month anniversary!!!!!!!!!

11:42 pm: well here's the count down.....

2 more days till i full quit my job

9 more days till my sisters b-day

12 more days till i turn 19 YAY MY B-DAY!!!!!!!

20 more days till i move into monmouth

20 more days till mine and jeremy's 3 month anaversary


yeah a lot to look forward too.

things have been going pretty good with me and jeremy. i love him so much! he's my big teddy bear. i'm really scared about me going to college though. i don't know what's going to happen between us. i hope things are able to stay the same.

but on the other hand, things with my mom have been kinda rocky. i think it's because she's just nervous about me going that far away for school and also realizing that i'm not a little baby any more. i'm almost all grown up. either way, i know i'll always be her little baby, i know i can go to her about anything.

well, here's to the rest of the summer in dp!

10:05 pm: omg
hell yeah 666 tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well i'm outta dp in 2 months so me some love or hate!!!!!

later bitches!

12:27 pm: myspace vs livejournal
ok so everyone is addicted to myspace right well.....fuck them i'm being lj BACK!!!!!!!! lol


myspace ruined my life.... :'(








haha just kidding.

11:40 pm: .......
so i haven't updated in a while but that's ok.

I've been going through a lot. i graduated early, i was happy about that. i got accep. to monmouth and caroll college and i'm currently going to occ.

well, the biggest emotional thing that has happened to me is that me and michael are no longer together. i'm happy about it but yet when i think about it too much it still makes me cry. stupid enough we both wanted to split apart. we still talk and every thing but it;s the hardest thing not to run into his arms and know that i have someone. someone that really loves me. i still love him so much, i know i always will. he says he still loves me too. maybe one day we'll be back together but until then i'm happy the way things are.

if anyone wants to ever talk just im me "severed16"
or call (847)699-1589 i'm almost always home.

01:40 pm: ok...
well, i haven't written in here in like a million years. But i've realized that life is one crazy ride. There's a lot of ups and downs and twists and turns and those damn crazy cork screws...lol. But i've learned to kinda live with it all. I've been hurt and i've cried, made new friends and smiled. And i actually wouldn't change a thing. Me and Michael had broken up, it hurt so bad. No matter how much ppl say we need a break or we need to break up, that was the most pain i've ever been in, in my whole life! But now we're back together and things are kinda better. I got a job! and make cash. Mike's looking for one and i hope he gets one soon. we're both tring to make things work, we are also planning on moving in with eachother at the end of high school. if things keep going ok and improve to going good, we are planning on becoming high school sweet hearts. <3 that would be amazing. u never hear that happen to often. But if i could i would marry him now. even though he makes me cry he has been the only one to know how to make me smile or make me feel so special. and i love it. i love him so much and i will do ne thing to keep this relationship going. but, as of now i've been trying to spend a lot of time with my friends too. I know once i started going out with mike i kinda neglected u's, and i'm srry for that. I should have never put a guy between our frendship. but i'm doing my best to make it up to ppl. well, for now i will go. have fun over the summer and if u want to hang out just call me. love you's!!!!!
~Tabby

09:52 pm: my day...
Mike told me he didn't want me to go with him to get his tuxedo, but then he can fuckin take Amanda Setmyer to go get it.

Then we had plans after it, but he's able to go be with Amanda when she says she needs someone there but he CAN'T fuckin be there for me.

Then i wanted to go out with him after that, but he's TAKING AMANDA out to the movies!!!!!!!!!!

I want to go to the movies all the time with him but we can never go cause he says he has no cash but he can FUCKIN take amanda, ANd i CAN'T go with him even though i helped pay for his tux but he can FUCKIN take amanda!!!!!!!!!!!!

DO YOU SEE A FUCKIN PROBLEM HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK ALL YOU ASSHOLE FUCKIN PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I TRULLY HATE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!
I HATE THIS FUCKIN WORLD!!!!!!!!!!
i wish i was dead...

10:57 pm: stolen from Brandy who stole it from some kid idk...
LAYER ONE: On The Outside
- Name: Tabitha Ann Marie Dominica DeCesare
- Nickname: Tab, Tabs, Tabby, Tabby Cat, My little cutie (michael's name for me)
- Birth date: Augusat 12, 1987
- Birthplace: Chicago.
- Current Location: Des Plaines.
- Eye Color: gray
- Hair Color: Brown.
- Height: 5'4"
- Righty or Lefty: Righty.
- Zodiac sign: Leo

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
- Your heritage: Italian, and a bit Polish
- The shoes you wore today: gym shoes and then no shoes
- Who you look like: myself
- Your weakness: love
- Your fears: too many to say
- Your perfect pizza: extra cheese w/ baccon and canadian baccon too.
- Goal you'd like to achieve: To have control of my life again.

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
- Your most overused phrase on AIM: lol
- Your thoughts first waking up: "I want to see my Michael"
- Your best physical feature: My eyes.
- Your bedtime: 10pm. when ever i'm tired and fall asleep
- Your most missed memory: 1st time in Wisconsin w/ Michael
- Pepsi or Coke: nither
- McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
- Adidas or Nike: adidas
- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
- Cappuccino or coffee: good old cup of joe.

LAYER FIVE: Do You?
- Smoke: No.
- Cuss: at times
- Sing: when i think no one's listening
- Have a crush: always
- Think you've been in love: In love right now and still falling deeper by the day
- Like high school: at times
- Want to get married: Yes.
- Believe in yourself: not at all
- Get motion sickness: yes
- Think you're attractive: not at all
- Think you're a health freak: No.
- Get along with your parents: at times (only w/ my mom though i don't see my dad)
- Like thunderstorms: Yes.
- Play an instrument: not any more

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
- Drank alcohol: No.
- Smoked: No.
- Done a drug: no.
- Eaten an entire box of Oreo's: no.
- Eaten sushi: No.
- Been on stage: yes
- Gone skating: No.
- Gone skinny-dipping: No.
- Dyed your hair: no
- Stolen anything: No.

LAYER SEVEN: Ever.
- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes.
- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yes.
- Been caught doing "something": Almost.
- Been called a tease: Yes.
- Gotten beaten up: In the teen vs. teen way, no.
- Shoplifted: no.


LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older
- Age you hope to be married: Lataround 26
- Numbers and Names of Children: 2...a boy and a girl...idk names
- Describe your dream wedding: too long to tell
- How do you want to die: having sex in pink fuzzy blankets
- What do you want to be when you grow up: morgtition
- What country would you most like to visit: europe (in general) china

LAYER NINE: In a partner
- Best eye color: as long as i think they're nice it doesn't matter
- Hair color: brown or black
- Short or long hair: medium
- Height: tall
- Weight: normal
- Best articles of clothing: dress shirts, or just boxers

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...
- Number of people I could trust with my life: maybe one
- Number of CDs that I own: whole shit load
- Number of piercings: idk any more
- Number of tattoos: none right now
- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: a few
- Number of things in my past that I regret: too many

10:21 pm: I know I haven't worte much in here lately but I've been busy...
Also, I know I have been ignoring my friends for like the past year and 5 months...
That was a stupid mistake...
I'm sorry to all of you's...

BUT!!!!!!!!

IF I DON'T SEE YOUR FUCKIN BITCH ASS' AT V-SHOW THIS YEAR COMMING TO SEE ME DO 3, NOT ONE OR TWO BUT 3 SOLO'S THEN I'M GOING TO COME AND ATTACK YOU!!!!!!!

lol...
jk, I won't attack you but I will be said...
So come all and make me smile!!!!!!!!!! :)

<3Tabby